Saturday, October 8, 2016

On Writing

It's been almost exactly a year since I've blogged. It's not that I haven't had anything to say... it's just that I've decided to prioritize life a little differently this past year. I love this blog and I love writing (well, actually I do not love writing... but I love being able to look back on writing.... so I think I should write, even if it's not my favorite! ha) remembering life and focusing in on individual moments in time. I like instagram because it's like a picture blog, but i don't have to write something profound with it. Mostly, I haven't been here because, well, the few moments I have without my lovely little people at my heels are spent frantically cleaning and cooking and organizing our new home and working and who knows what else I do, and by the time I have a moment that I think, 'this is the perfect time to blog!', someone is waking up... and trying to teach toddlers that it's ok for mommy to be on the laptop but not them... not a battle worth it at this point... AH well, this is not even what I came here to write!! Also, I just heard my daughter's door open and here comes Maddie.... who will soon be followed by Rachie :) Well.... I'll be back later..... :) I'll leave you with these beauties at the park a month or two ago.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

Bridge to Walmart

You might be a Walmart shopper when:

 - your kid takes bites out of the pool noodles in your cart and makes this adorable face while doing so, so you say, eh if it makes her happy...

 - your other kid opens the package of forks you're buying and puts them in her mouth, and you just throw the packaging on the counter like it ain't no thing when you buy them

 - you follow the lady with the price stickers through the kids' clothes and scramble to grab everything she is marking down to $1.00 {seriously, bathing suits and jammies for $1?! we'll take two of each!}

 - your kid takes bites out of the apple you just put in the cart to buy

 - you get crazy excited when the kiddie pool you came in to buy is marked down from $8 to $5

 - you begin telling your life story to the checker at Target in response to a comment she makes about items you're purchasing only to find she isn't listening and your story isn't really making sense and you think, I sound like a crazy person

 - you're wearing sweatpants and a ponytail pushing your cart with one hand while one kid sits in the cart emptying your diaper bag and the other cries on your hip

 - you realize you are THAT person that used to make you cringe... you are one of the people of Walmart... and turns out, the people of Walmart are just ordinary people trying to do life slightly cheaper {and wiser}


I can't believe it. At this stage in my life, Walmart may just be the best place for me.

Next thing you know, I'll be driving a minivan. {just kidding!!}

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Saturday, May 9, 2015

For Rachel and Madelyn

My beautiful girls,

I've had the incredible blessing of being your mommy for over a year now. 
Tomorrow is our second Mother's Day together, and my heart is so so thankful.


Thankful for every single day I've had with you.
Thankful for your laughs, and your little fingers, and your hearts.
Thankful for mealtimes, and snuggle sessions, and your little voices that say more and more each day.
Thankful to be the one to pick you up every morning, and the one to lay you down every night.
Thankful for the twinkle in your eyes every time you learn or discover something new.
Thankful for every single one of your kisses and hugs.
Thankful for the honor of being your mommy. 


Madelyn Joy and Rachel Claire, you have humbled me and taught me so much.
I am so very thankful that God allowed me to be the one you call 'mom.'


I found this song which speaks my heart to you.
I love you, my precious daughters.



Love, 
Mommy



lyrics:

Good night
Looks like we made it through the day
The moon sighs
And I know that we're okay

Sleep tight
I love to watch you drift away
I would come with you but on my knees I'll stay

Good night
Five little fingers holding mine
Take flight
Into your dreams and lullabies

There's nothing more that I can do
But just fall more in love with you
And ask the angel armies to stand by
When I leave the room

I'm gonna fail you
I already have
Ten thousand times
I will fall down flat

You'll have a seat in the front row
Of everything I don't know
And all I'm trying to be
You'll see

Good night
There will be storms that we come through
In time
We will slay dragons me and you

I'll always wanna hold you tight
Keep you safe with all my might
So I will leave Jesus next to you
When I leave the room

And you will run ahead
As if you know the way
And I will pray more
Then one should have to pray

There will be words we can't take back
Silences too
And I'll be on my knees
You'll see

One night
When I am old and unsteady
You'll want me to fight
But I'll tell you that I'm ready

When there's nothing left to do
I will still be loving you
Then you'll fold your fingers into mine
And I will let Jesus hold you tight
When I leave the room

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

The Flower Fields

I'e been wanting to visit the Carlsbad Flower Fields with my girls this season, and was reminded of them when I went to a friend's baby shower down the street from them this past weekend. The fields close on Mother's Day this coming weekend, so Mom and I took advantage of her day off 
(and her anniversary today! Happy anniversary Mom and Steve!!)
to take the girls today!

I took some pictures of the girls, which are mostly side profiles since it's set up so you cant get in front of them unless they face away from the flowers (and come on, they're one. They wanna touch the flowers. Don't tell the flower people we touched them!). But I of course with my completely unbiased opinion ;) think they are so cute, so I'll share them with you too. Just because it's fun and I can!

Thanks, Grandma, for joining us! And thanks, Grammy, for the adorable outfits!

This girl was miss independent!
Maddie: there's a man sitting on that bench...
...I don't want that man to sit on that bench by me!
my precious Rachel Claire
typical photo attempt these days!
Pointing at the airplane
my precious Madelyn Joy
Rachel: let me show you, sissy. You just pull the petals off like this. No it's ok, that's what we're supposed to do.
I'll have this headband off in three, two, one!
'I wanna walk!!' This girl is non-stop these days, walking about 50% of the time. (!!)
typical life with two busy one year olds!
kissing the bird from afar
watching the doves (or some variety of birds!)