Friday, May 9, 2014

39 Days

Thirty nine days of being a mommy to Maddie and Rachel.
Thirty nine days of sleeping less than three hours at a time... always.
Thirty nine days of tears, laughs, hugs, exhaustion, and pure joy.
Thirty nine days of feeding babies, pumping milk, washing bottles, changing diapers.
Thirty nine days of cycling through every emotion that exists within a matter of minutes at times.
Thirty nine days of falling in love with my husband in a whole new way as we take on the 
immense blessing and challenge of parenting together.
Thirty nine of the best and hardest days of my life.

I can't believe it's only been thirty nine days.

I can't believe it's already been thirty nine days.

I have learned that I can function on far less sleep than I ever thought possible. 
[being a night nurse, I thought I already did this. well, now I reallllllllly do this.]

I have learned that anything and everything has the potential to make me cry.
[the thought of them getting one day older, trying to feed them, Maddie's puckered lip when she cries and Rachel's hoarse high pitched whimper, their snuggles, anyone doing anything for me, sweet texts, cards, verses of encouragement... you name it.]

I have learned that being a mommy is the hardest thing I have ever done. 
Harder than I ever thought possible.

I have learned that being a mommy is the greatest joy I have ever experienced. 
Greater than I ever thought possible.

I have learned that each day is made of moments, and living in this moment is the best way to live. Thank you Mom for this best piece of advice and encouragement you could have given.

I have learned that my Savior's love for me is deeper than I ever really understood.
I have learned He truly is my strength when I am weak.

I am SO thankful for the blessing of being a mommy.
Madelyn Joy and Rachel Claire are the biggest gifts I could have ever received.
Thank you Lord for these moments.


  1. this is all so beautiful! it's so obvious from these photos and words that you are an incredible mother. also, amazing that you carried them to 38 weeks!! loved reading this post; thanks for sharing :)

    1. Thank you Michaela! So encouraging! I'm definitely being humbled daily! Just checked out your blog also, love it! Handfuls... such a great concept. :)